I'm on a one week bruise ban. From Sunday to Friday, I've sworn of bruises. No biting, no choking. Just gentleness.
I know, I don't like it either, but I have to do a medical thing on Friday morning... It wouldn't look good.
Tonight I caught up with my friend who chokes me sometimes. I explained the ban.
Tonight we ended up kissing, watching a movie. Touching gently. We curled up on the couch, my legs over his lap, him pulling me in. Kissing my lips and cheeks and neck. Running his fingertips through my hair, looking at my face and smiling.
It was all quite sweet...
We wandered into the bedroom, and he undressed me really slowly. He unclipped my new bra, and slipped the matching black and gold lace panties to the floor. He lay me back on the bed, and pinned my legs slightly apart between his.
He stroked my clit softly, looking to my eyes, watching my breathing. My legs trembled as I came. He pushed me close to coming then slowed down just a tad. Leaving me squirming and desperate. By the time he was on top of me I was wet, desperate. Wanting his chest pressed against mine, with his cock deep inside me.
He kissed me, putting on the condom carefully, then slipped his cock inside me carefully, watching my eyes as he did. His fingers dug into my sides a little, pleasure evident on his face.
I started to come, it only took two minutes with him inside me to get there. He pushed in and out, comfortably, my legs shaking just a little. I came, digging my fingers into his back...
He kissed me as I came. He pushed me really hard at one point, and I came so hard I could actually feel my wetness dripping. My heart raced.
He stroked my neck softly as I came. No pressure, just a trigger to help push me up over the edge again.
Then he stopped.
I don't mean came, he pulled out, curled up next to me and kissed my neck.
I suggested we should continue and he said it was ok. As though he didn't want to.
Maybe I've lost my touch?
Freaking hot story, but am really beginning to wonder about this guy. Has he ever cum while with you?
ReplyDeleteI think it more of his issue than anything to do with you...just saying.
This is the second time, and no. Same guy from "Lightheaded". I'm not sure if it's me, or maybe I'm not doing something that he wants me to? Guess I'll have to toughen up and just ask.
DeleteSSB
He hasn't cum? Honey, he's using you...and not necessarily in a good way. You're a play-thing, not someone to pleasure or receive pleasure from. Frankly, that's too weird for me.
ReplyDeleteMany guys use me and don't love me, but they ALWAYS cum! lol
Seriously, be careful. There must be a guy who'll choke you just to the point of passing out, if that's what you're into...but will want to enjoy the rest of what you have to offer, as well.
I'm with Neighborhood Milf on this one...
DeleteIt has nothing to do with you and everything to do with him. It is just strange that he won't allow himself to cum...
I don't have a great answer. I'm not sure what the issue is. It's like he's having fun and we're connecting, but like I'm failing to push a button.
DeletePerhaps a fetish that I'm missing?
We have a lot of fun together, and we have a lot in common. I just don't seem to... you know... do it for him enough to push him over the edge to orgasm.
Oh i am pretty sure, there is a guy like that somewhere around. Actually i know it. ;)
ReplyDeleteHe sounds like he's either gay, has an STD or needs some form of stimulation to get off that he hasn't told you about. If I were you I'd move on...
ReplyDeleteAs it is a rainy day, why don't you contemplate no porn for a while (it does desensitise you).... and think long and hard about why you are dating all of these kinds of people?
Have you thought about why it is that you follow a path of ever more extreme acts?
Throughout your blog you've gone from either controlling or being controlled sexually, yet the telling point is you always want to leave.
THAT is the real issue and bears some long consideration..
Hi Anonymous,
DeleteSome interesting words in that lot.
I appreciate you taking the time to share your views.
I'm not sure I seek more extremity, these are threads common throughout the last eight years of sexual activity. Not all have been blogged about, and obviously I haven't been blogging that whole time, so I can see, after reviewing my writing, that it might seem like escalation.
Your opinion on porn desensitising is so interesting - I only really discovered porn about twelve months ago, and I don't think I'm desensitised, I probably don't consume in a volume where that is a serious risk.
The issue of sexual control. Part of me enjoys the control, the battle for, and the sexuality that seems to come with domination and submission. I'm probably attracted to that dynamic because it's what turns me on.
As for the no orgasms, I'm not sure, perhaps a conversation about them is warranted?
Just my thoughts on your feedback, cheers for taking the time my nameless friend.
SSB
mmmm... thank you for the response....
DeletePorn or extreme sex effects your satisfaction... the more you consume or the wilder you go, the more it takes to satisfy. You have actually stepped it up with the choking and that is a dangerous direction/escalation. For your own safety, there's more out there than that....
"The trick is to look at it all and work out what you need to try different to get a different outcome".
You still haven't looked far enough down the road to ask yourself the hard questions yet (god I sound like Confucius)
It's been a week, Sexy. How'd your weekend go? I hope we don't have to worry when you don't show up...because we will. I will.
ReplyDelete*kisses*
~Tori
Hey Tori!
DeleteI'm still here :)
xx
*smiles*
ReplyDeleteI worry every day ... i cant help it. ;)