There was a girl. Once upon a time. She was a very good friend of mine.
We met while I worked with her best friend.
Over time him and I became very close. Sleeping together a few times. Him and I were incompatible. I was in my 23 and sleeping with a teenager. Granted he was 18, but I still felt a little... strange. Younger man and all.
He eventually fell in love, I invariably didn't. He sent his best friend, Bee, to do recon. Our group of friends, her now included, ended up drinking together, partying together, her working her way through my defences at his request, to seek information about why I didn't feel the same.
Eventually I came to trust her and I laid it out for her. He was trying to make me be his mother, and I wasn't ready for a teenage child.
She explained this to him, over and over and over. Painfully. Breaking his heart repeatedly. I broke it over and over. The kid was a masochist. He kept coming back, and I'd serve him up a fresh plate of heart ache.
She got angry with him, resenting him putting himself in the position to have his heart broken. She ended up bonding with me over our mutual dislike of kicking this kid when he was down.
Our bond over hurting him was strangely compelling. She took to spending girls nights at my house, watching action movies, playing guitar hero. We spent Friday through Sunday together. Sometimes more.
She's taller than me. I'd guess 168 cm tall. Average build, but muscular. Large firm breasts, light brown hair, green eyes. Her eyes are a little more hazel than mine.
She was sleeping with a guy. An engaged guy with a pregnant fiance. They'd been sneaking around for sometime. Eventually she broke it off with him. I picked up the pieces of her broken heart, lying naked in my backyard, bathing in the sunshine of late spring. Months went by. Three days a week, we'd sunbathe and talk.
With how close we'd become, and the public knowledge that we were both bisexual, rumours started. Whispers. People would stare and wonder.
She was an exhibitionist. She revelled in the attention. She'd walk up behind me in front of our mutual friends and slip her hands around my waist, resting her chin on my shoulder. Brushing my hair off my cheek. She loved to tease them. Torture them.
One night, we'd been out partying. It had been a long night. Her, my boss and I wound up catching a taxi to my place for a nightcap. Nothing unusual, really.
He made a joke about us being sexy lesbians. She kissed me, just to tease him. He was in a committed relationship. He wouldn't touch us. She was just being a tease.
"You're bad" he remarked.
"Yes, she is" Bee agreed.
She pushed me back in a chair opposite him, getting down on all fours. Looking over her shoulder, ass exposed a little because of her short dress.
"Should I lick her?" she asked. "Maybe I should punish her for being naughty with my tongue."
He froze. Stunned. I looked at her eyes wide. She winked. I wasn't sure if she was serious or playing. Either way, I was wet.
She licked my lace panties with her tongue. I shivered slightly.
"Look him in the eye" she whispered in a firm voice. Barely audible, but the directness was unmistakeable.
I obeyed instantly.
I looked him dead in the eye, and she immediately reached inside my lace panties, pushing two fingers straight inside me and as she got all the way in, she applied pressure to my clit with her thumb.
I shook immediately. The eye contact between BossMan and I wasn't breaking. She licked my clit softly, flicking it. I came in seconds.
He sat there. Staring at us.
That's how it all started.
She took to teasing me in public. Spanking me sometimes, kissing my neck, nibbling my ears, stroking the back my thighs under a skirt.
She pushed me into the store room at work. One night she even kissed me in front of her heartbroken best friend, just because she could. She wasn't always nice, but she was always a tease.
We ended up close. Very close. A perfect understanding. At night, sometimes we'd watch a movie, sometimes we'd fuck. But every day, we'd end up naked in my yard, talking together, lying in the sun.
Months went past. The lazy spring weather of October turned to a chilly Autumn in April. The sunshine days were fewer.
My birthday came. We kissed, we partied. She pinned my wrists against a wall in a pub and let a very beautiful lesbian kiss me, tease me. Bee knew how to drag me outside my comfort zone. Make me feel beautiful and dirty in the same heartbeat.
We spent the night apart. Her best friend having a final breakdown at seeing us together. He's never spoken to me since.
During the cooler months of that Autumn, she fell in love. She fell in love with a guy who controlled her. So she lied, manipulated, cheated. I helped her. I gave her alibis, I manipulated his trust. Even though he considered me a friend.
Her and I stopped sleeping together, we just kept teasing guys occasionally. Just for fun. I was happy to help her get her exhibitionist fix.
One day he caught on. He realised I knew more than I'd let on.
He caught me by the wrist, put me on the spot and asked me a question I couldn't cover. The time it took me to think of a good answer was too long, the lie obvious.
Caught in the depths of her bad lies, tangled in more than a year of deceit. I let it slip. I told him some of the truths. Since the day I told him a whisper, she's not said a word.
I don't miss her for the sex as much as I miss her for the companionship. For the fun. For her big hazel-green eyes and beautiful smile.
Don't you wish sometimes that you could just fix it? Even when you can't.
lies get you nowhere in the end, her behaviour was gonna end up hurting the people around her (including you) and that it did sadly. Theres always that side to someone who ends up ruining the better half of themselves, and you end up paying for it with a loss of a friend or lover etc.
ReplyDeleteMaybe she's changed her ways by now, and maybe you can rekindle that strong compainship you had once before or maybe she'll still be that same person. In which you can do without and best leave it as a nostalgic memory of a happier time in your life
I guess nostalgic is the right word. But then, maybe she is different. Maybe we could be friends. Maybe she wouldn't lie to me.
DeleteBut maybe she would.
In my opinion you're better off, you don't need someone to drag you down to their level mainly because you're a better person than that yourself hopefully. Who knows, you might end up meeting someone like her again and form a new companionship without the bad parts.
ReplyDeleteThanks badwolf.
DeleteI guess there are two sides to every story. Maybe I did do something worse to her that I didn't perceive.
Maybe the key is new friendships?
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yes, but you don't want to form new friendships with the wrong people. Find the right ones, test them and see how they play out before forming a greater bond with them. Also remember that not everything has to lead to sex, enjoy just the social interaction of itself and you'll be a happier you.
ReplyDeleteOf course, hope for the best, plan for the worst, and see what kind of people they are.
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