My Kittens

Hello Kittens,

It's been a very long time. 

A very long time.  

A very complicated time.

Fell in love.

Fell out of love.

Lost some part that felt really important that I didn't know how to get back. Funny how some choice feel permanent.  If I wasn't so proud I could probably find a way to fix it.

But I don't really know how.

Feet

So... more news about BabyFace.

BabyFace has admitted to me that he has a foot fetish. He loves nothing more than to spend his time massaging and kissing and rubbing my feet. He leaves and masturbates afterwards - which is a good thing because I don't think I'm up to fucking him at the moment.

The foot worship is interesting... but I think I need a pedicure!

I must admit, it's a new experience!

With Love
SSB

A Weekend...

So MarriedGuy is now in fact married. I did my part, participated in their wedding. Managed not to say anything about the frequency of his indiscretions. I was in his hotel room getting ready to go down to the reception. MarriedGuy copped a feel, whispered "one day I'll grow up", kissed me on the neck. I don't think he has any intention of treating married life differently to the last 6 1/2 years of their relationship.

So, Long. Good old Long and I caught up. It was BossMans birthday party. BabyFace, Long and BossMan and I got talking. There were espresso martinis. Many many espresso martinis. And after a hundred espresso martinis, I was licking espresso off two gay guys then Long and BabyFace took me home and we had quite the interesting night. What a night it was too.... spanking, oral, anal...  Those two boys fucked me so hard it was incredible. Those two twisted my body into a thousand different positions. I think my favourite would have to be on my couch though. Long sitting down with BabyFace holding my head down on Longs cock while fucking me hard from behind.

You'd think that'd be enough for one weekend? But no. At the wedding, I was busted naked by a very handsome musician (getting changed into my dress). The best man was following him into the room. I've known the best man for the better part of 10 years. At the reception, the best man and I were sitting at the bridal table. After ensuring his wife and son were a reasonable distance away, he grabbed my hand under the table, pulled it up onto his thigh, leaned in and whispered "The musician looked away, I didn't. Every inch of skin under your dress is just about perfect." When it came to good bye hugs, he kissed me, almost on the lips. Just far enough to be socially acceptable, but the hand on my ass told me that there are other things on his mind.

Punk and I have been friends - not sex-friends. Just friends. It's going fine, just pleasant.

As for (s)Ex. Well, someone told him I've been seeing other people last week. This lead to a VERY large scene, with him screaming at yours truly. I responded by telling him he could go fuck himself. Doubt there will be much more in this chapter moving forward. He informed me that if I was "interested" in others that there wasn't space for him in my life. I'd have thought after breaking it off with someone you were free to do as you pleased. Apparently I was mistaken. So silent treatment it is, from him. I'd be lying if I said I was disappointed,

As for me? I'm happy as ever. Still a perve, still loving men as much as ever.

With Love (and thoughts of sex)

SSB x

Down For The Count

Dear Friends,

I've been away as you might have noticed.

But I'm back.

Definitely back.

Hopefully with some sordid details soon...

I've missed you all.

With Love
SSB

Quiet Reflections

So, this week has been really quiet, there's almost nothing to mention, so instead we'll do a recap of how things are with all my boys. 

Guy who won't come: So, I asked him about this last night. He explained as follows, he has difficulty getting there, and has done for quite some time. He had been concerned about how lightheaded I was so he'd been focussed on me. I suggested we put the choking aside for a while, he agreed. Things look more positive there.

Punk: Punk is in love with a girl who doesn't love him back. He's been trying to sway me into getting into bed with him (most likely to just numb the pain). I've been declining. Nothing is really different between us, but I feel like we've passed our used-by date.

BabyFace: BabyFace and I are spending quite a bit of time together, chatting and hanging out. He started giving me those big wide eyes, so I've put a little bit of space there. We're catching up about once a week, but no sex.

Muso: Is in town, keeps calling me. I'm avoiding. No particular reason, but I just don't have the energy for his bullshit at the moment.

MarriedGuy: We had a heart to heart. I value his friendship, and I don't want to risk losing it, or risk him losing his family. I said we should stop fooling about. He didn't quite agree, but things are looking to be on an even keel.

Red: Fell in love, he's dating a great girl. Hardly hear a whisper from him these days. When I do he suggests I should meet her. Sounds fine to me.

Spike: Spike and I have been chatting and catching up occasionally. Though it hasn't been sexual. I've been a little over him too of late. 

Long: Long is off the rails. We've not been sleeping together for a very long time, but he's dating lots of girls and partying hard. Love him to pieces, but he's a mess right now. I'm leaving him to run amok alone.

Pup: Trying to be a better boyfriend to his long time partner. She is now a "homemaker" (no kids, so I'm not sure what this means) but it does mean he can't sneak around any more.

(s)Ex: (s)Ex and I aren't sleeping together. He's been away on work, and I can't be bothered. We're still friends, and still pretty close, but I don't know if I'm up for more meaningless sex. It feels weird.

And as for me... I'm taking it easy. I've been preoccupied with family stuff for the last week. So no sex to report at all. I've been up in my head, I suppose, thinking about the future and about where I'm going. 

Sorry there's not more sexiness to check in with...

With Love

SSBx

Bruise Ban

I'm on a one week bruise ban. From Sunday to Friday, I've sworn of bruises. No biting, no choking. Just gentleness. 

I know, I don't like it either, but I have to do a medical thing on Friday morning... It wouldn't look good.

Tonight I caught up with my friend who chokes me sometimes. I explained the ban.

Tonight we ended up kissing, watching a movie. Touching gently. We curled up on the couch, my legs over his lap, him pulling me in. Kissing my lips and cheeks and neck. Running his fingertips through my hair, looking at my face and smiling.

It was all quite sweet...

We wandered into the bedroom, and he undressed me really slowly. He unclipped my new bra, and slipped the matching black and gold lace panties to the floor. He lay me back on the bed, and pinned my legs slightly apart between his. 

He stroked my clit softly, looking to my eyes, watching my breathing. My legs trembled as I came. He pushed me close to coming then slowed down just a tad. Leaving me squirming and desperate. By the time he was on top of me I was wet, desperate. Wanting his chest pressed against mine, with his cock deep inside me.

He kissed me, putting on the condom carefully, then slipped his cock inside me carefully, watching my eyes as he did. His fingers dug into my sides a little, pleasure evident on his face.

I started to come, it only took two minutes with him inside me to get there. He pushed in and out, comfortably, my legs shaking just a little. I came, digging my fingers into his back... 

He kissed me as I came. He pushed me really hard at one point, and I came so hard I could actually feel my wetness dripping. My heart raced.

He stroked my neck softly as I came. No pressure, just a trigger to help push me up over the edge again.

Then he stopped.

I don't mean came, he pulled out, curled up next to me and kissed my neck.

I suggested we should continue and he said it was ok. As though he didn't want to. 

Maybe I've lost my touch?

Too Far

I think I might have pushed it too hard.  As my friends neighborhoodmilf and thebeatgoes pointed out in the comments from yesterday.

Thanks for the reality check guys.

The lightheadedness isn't clearing as easily as usual, and it hurts when I swallow. Yes - if it gets worse I'll see a doctor (I'll even tell them how I got the bruises).

For now, rest, warm tea, relaxation.

Today my best friend is coming over for lunch, hair stroking, and cuddles. I think I'm feeling a little emotionally neglected and need to spend some quality time with people who get me. 

In exciting news, I got an email from a friend. He's been off the grid in Paris for a couple of months now. Only a couple of emails in months and months. I'm so delighted to have heard from him. 

So here is to me accepting my limits, to lovely emails, and a day of Quentin Tarantino movies!

Thanks for the reality checks sometimes.

Love, 

SSB

P.S. NeighborhoodMilf writes a really amazing, really edgy blog. Hit her up here: milflife.blogspot.com.au.